I never thought that being friends with someone I love would turn out like this.
I never thought that before age 25 I would’ve had a relationship that had serious and heavy ups and downs.
I never thought that a stranger would become someone who is one of the most important people in my life.
I never thought that I would be hurt enough to still be working on it over a year later.
I can’t believe how important to me she is, and how things are going between me and that girl.
Part of me wants to meet people and go out on dates and hang out with them and whatnot. Part of me wants to do all those things, but with her.
Part of me wants to see her get out there and meet new people and make friends and go on dates and part if me wants to keep her all to myself.
Things are very complicated with her.
Things are very simple with her.
Dating her again has it’s obstacles to overcome, just between me and her. There are many more between our families and friends that we’ll have to deal with as well.
The things between me and her make it very difficult to date, because that would mean having to delve back into it all and face those things so we can work those issues out. Picking at old and fresh wounds, essentially, to just be done. But will we ever really be done with them?
I never thought that being friends with
someone I love would turn out like this.